You born with many memories coming from your family, ancestors… and more programs are created according to what you experienced in your childhood, by your education, the culture and society where you evolve… Plus some patterns you created by yourself. I could also talk about your karmic memories, but it may be or not one of your believing…
To resum : your brain and your body kept all in memory, and your subconscious makes you repeat the same patterns… You was probably wondering why this situations kept happening to you, and this despite lots of personal development work didn’t you? Now you know a part of the answer ! The rest may have its origin if the complex and not always well understood functioning of the law of attraction.
As a results, this patterns, thoughts, emotions related, all coming from your subconscious limit yourself and your growth. If you don’t encounter success in life, this may be partly true that you didn’t do the right actions to achieve your dream, or not with the good purpose… but the main reason may be in your subconscious.
Good news, it’s not forever ! Stop blaming yourself and focus on the change to come : you can master it and reprogram it… Believe me, miracle can really happen when you release yourself.
If you want to recover your free will and live your life according to your own value, you need first to get rid of this old patterns, and create some new positive one. Then, time to master your mind and your emotions to create your reality.